Wednesday, May 14, 2014

So I talked to my friend Olivia today, and she thinks pink hair is an amazing idea.

But then I also talked to my boyfriend, and he thinks it's a bad one.

I don't know what I think - but I must want it if I keep thinking about it right?

Ugh, the struggle. THE STRUGGLE.

Also, I realized today that I would be completely content working in a bakery because for some reason I get so dorky excited over how beautiful and cute desserts are. I have a few shifts where I work now doing bakery, and I was putting up all the desserts in displays and felt so happy because it looked so darn cute. Sweets just get me going, I don't know why.

I've also been thinking about getting more into makeup. Not because I'm not content with how I look without it, but because it looks like a lot fun. I mean, it's like putting art on your face, which I really enjoy. I also love colors, and lipstick colors and dark lashes make me feel happy, so I'm thinking why not? I don't think I'd have the energy to put it on everyday, but once in a while would be fun to do, especially for going out to do fun things. The only issue I have is actually spending the money to get all the makeup now… Ugh.

Also, the rain is just nice, isn't it?

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

My goal was to write on this blog everyday because writing everyday is a good habit, right? Well, that obviously didn't happen because I missed yesterday… blah… I almost missed today too (because I don't really have anything to write about) until I watched the video by Zoella and Sprinkles of Glitter (two You Tubers - I have a problem, I know) about questions/comments about your size (whether you're slender or curvy) which I really related to. (Sorry about all the parenthesis.)

When I was younger, and really until I was a senior in high school, I didn't think about my weight at all. I was completely content with how I looked and felt, and no one really said anything about it so I paid it no attention. However, the summer before my senior year I lost a lot of weight - partly because I was having some stomach issues and partly because I was so busy. I was completely unaware of the fact that I had lost so much weight until I returned to school. Literally everyone commented on how skinny I had gotten, including teachers, and rather than make me feel good about myself it actually made me feel really self-conscious. I'm not really quite sure why this was - maybe because this was the first time so many people were responding to my appearance (in turn making me pay more attention to it), which I wasn't used to, and maybe partly because it made me feel like I was somehow unattractive/fat before. For someone who had never felt fat, I felt like becoming thin had made me a more desirable person somehow because so many people were making such a huge deal of it. Obviously this isn't a good mind set.

It became a real problem when I entered college. I never really paid much attention to what I ate, and being surrounded by junk food constantly in the dining halls meant that I gradually gained weight, and it made me feel really bad about myself, especially when I went back home to people who knew me as "skinny" (and in my mind a more cool/attractive). I felt like I had suddenly become a less valuable person because of my size, which is not okay. No one would know that I had felt this way, though, because I never talk about this stuff out loud, but commenting on people's weight, in my opinion, is not an okay thing, whether they're thin or curvy. If you're trying to compliment them, try using phrases like "you look nice" or "great" instead. (The video with Zoey and Louise explains this so much better than I do…)

Anyway, I've been eating healthier now and feel better about myself mentally as well - not because of my size but because I just feel great the way I am. And who cares what anyone else thinks? People will judge you no matter what your size is so might as well allow yourself to love you the way you are. Also, you're size does not equate your value as a person at all.

It's not like people actually read this blog, but it feels good to get this off my chest. ^_^


P.S. I was kind of tired while writing this so I'm sorry if there are mistakes/ramblings/things that don't make sense.

Sunday, May 11, 2014

Sometimes there are days I just have a weird feeling. I don't even know how to describe it, so I found a video/song that sort of embodies the strange way I feel today. This happens a lot when I don't have a lot to do (like right now). It makes me want to be a hermit, actually…….. eh sometimes I just don't want any human contact at all.

Hopefully I'm not the only one who feels like this sometimes.

Here's a drawing I did today called Disconnect.


Saturday, May 10, 2014

gem power

I've been attempting to become better at creating art in Photoshop with my Wacom tablet, and it's proving to be a little difficult…. To practice, I've been drawing portraits of my friends. This is one I made for my friend Ashlyn. Her cat, Jewel (the fattest cat in the world), has a gem-shaped tuft of hair on her head, which was the inspiration behind this piece. I'm not quite where I want to be yet, but I suppose this is a start…

This is a short post today, but I feel so blah.


Friday, May 9, 2014

Hair Madness

I don't know what has come over me lately, but I am loving colored hair - the crazier, the brighter, the better. Maybe it was because I never got to have that crazy hair phase in high school, but every time I see a picture of a girl with pink hair, I get so jealous!

I know, I know, getting your hair colored can be a hassle to keep up and a hassle on your hair - especially for someone like me who would have to bleach it first, but I mean just… Just look at how awesome it looks! Gah, I can't take it.

I personally think that darker hair looks better on me, though, so I was thinking that maybe pink isn't the right color for me (even though it's so cute). So if I do decide to do something crazy like this, I was considering doing a dark blue instead. What do you think???

(all pics from Pinterest btw)

The struggle is real, people.


Thursday, May 8, 2014


This will be a blog just for writing because I feel like I don't write that often anymore, and any writing is good practice.

I thought I'd start things off by talking about some of the things I've been enjoying lately. I've been watching a lot of youtube videos (you know, with finals coming up and all), and a big trend is "favorite videos." Basically, the Youtuber will talk about all their favorite things from the previous month (usually beauty stuff but occasionally it'll be anything they fancied), and you'd think it'd be kind of weird but it's unusually enjoyable to watch because sometimes you'll be introduced to something really cool. Since I'm not that great/comfortable with being in front of a camera, I thought I'd do this same thing, but in blog form. ^_^

1. Animal Crossing: New Leaf (3DS)

I've had this game for a long time, so it's nothing new, but it's sooooo goooooood. I'm a huge Nintendo nerd, and animal crossing, in my opinion, is one of Nintendo's best! I've played both the GameCube version and the DS version, and the new 3DS version has not let me down. Sometimes Animal Crossing can get a little monotonous so the addition of mayor-hood was a great way to spice things up a bit. I'll play this game hard-core for a couple weeks and then set it down and pick it back up later and start hard-core once again. Of course, the villagers are a little upset with me every time I decide to banana split for a while, but hey, is it just me or do they seem a little nicer about it now than they did in previous versions?! Could just be me, though…. (Also, you are talking to the Queen of Weed-Pulling. Just saying.)

2. Bioshock Infinite (PS3)

So, for some reason my first two favorites are video games. ^_^ I'm actually a newbie/terrible at first-person shooters, so getting this game was a stretch for me but I AM SO GLAD I DID. At first, I was really terrible at the controls/shooting in general but, hey, I picked it up pretty quick if I do say so myself (heh heh, although my boyfriend might disagree). I think the gameplay is super fun and the art is incredible. I still haven't finished it yet because I've been busy with school (and Netflix, let's be honest), but so far it's a pretty dang good game.

3. PewDiePie

I'm starting to think that this Favorites was a bad idea because it will be revealed to the world how terribly dorky I really am… (Yeah, Katie, cuz it was such a secret), but anyway, my third favorites is the YouTuber Pewdiepie! Once again, this favorites is game-related because Pewdiepie films himself playing all kinds of video games (quite hilariously). Some people might find his humor "inappropriate," I suppose, but I absolutely adore it! I'm not even that big of a gamer, but I uber enjoy his videos (and obviously so do a lot of other people because he's the number one most subscribed to person on Youtube.) He is a much watch. Warning: do not watch super loud in the morning. You might wake up your neighbors with his screams.

4. Princess Jellyfish

Now manga time! (Yeah, the dorkiness just gets worse and worse.) My friend Angela had me watch the anime Princess Jellyfish on Netflix and for some reason I just couldn't stop watching. I don't even know why! It's a pretty classic comedy/shojo anime but there is just something charming about it that I can't quite put my finger on. I'm currently reading through the manga right now and it's just so good! ;_; Gah, I can't take it!

Well, four isn't very many, but it'll have to do for now. (I'm supposed to be studying after all…….) I'll probably do more favorites in the future plus anything else I feel like doing. : D